Novocaine 2 - rainzzz&DempseyRollBoy

[00:00.26]Novocaine 2 (Explicit) - rainzzz/DempseyRollBoy
[00:01.43]Lyrics by：Jacob Loaiza
[00:02.33]Composed by：Jacob Loaiza
[00:11.07]Every night the light fades my happiness goes with it
[00:14.29]Haunted by these memories I can't help but revisit
[00:17.1]Cryin' out for help but nobody wants to listen
[00:19.96]What's it gonna take to break me out of this prison
[00:22.8]Time has passed but nothin's changed except I'm more deranged
[00:25.24]I'm so out of it snap out of it
[00:27.01]I can't I'm disengaged
[00:28.27]Now I'm off the drugs they've been flowin' through my veins
[00:31.02]I've found a way to numb the pain novocainе
[00:34.09]I still can't believe what happеned sadness keeps on rainin' down
[00:36.9]Nothin' ever goes as planned I thought I'd be okay by now
[00:39.8]Lookin' back I had it backwards love is what I chased around
[00:42.59]Someone else can't make you happy
[00:44.02]All you'll do is make them drown
[00:45.34]Take it from me they say they'll stay but they'll leave
[00:47.78]And now I've either gotta heal or kill myself to be free
[00:50.45]'Cuz I'm so manic every decision I make is extreme
[00:53.42]I still don't know what my purpose is
[00:55.26]I don't know what it means
[00:56.6]God I think I'm finished I don't think I wanna live
[00:59.29]But y'all don't want me dead yet
[01:00.69]I got too much left to give
[01:02.02]I cut slits on my wrist they remind me to exist
[01:04.74]I done came too far to give up
[01:06.43]It's too late to call it quits
[01:07.89]I've been trippin' for a minute off the pills I'm an abuser
[01:10.43]All alone and got no home
[01:11.78]And got no soul and got no future
[01:13.37]And my mind is full of voices
[01:14.76]Can't get rid of these intruders
[01:16.08]They say time heals all those ain't nothin' more than rumours
[01:18.99]I've been down bad still me I'm still sad
[01:21.479996]Clip full of bullets but I'm still weak I can't blast
[01:24.39]Livin' for the moment I'ma die young and live fast
[01:27.06]I can't wait until the day
[01:28.31]When all I see is pitch black
[01:30.11]Maybe nothin's real I can't even believe in myself
[01:32.68]Everything I feel is tellin' me I can't be myself
[01:35.59]If the truth reveals will I be able to free myself
[01:38.369995]If the truth reveals will I be able to see myself
[01:41.229996]I will never know but that doesn't matter does it
[01:43.66]'Cuz no one gives a **** I'm just a topic of discussion
[01:46.64]A name they'll entertain another source of pointless judgement
[01:49.29]I'm a picture in a frame
[01:50.619995]They can look but they can't touch it
[01:52.22]Novocaine novocaine **** the money **** the fame
[01:55.009995]I ain't changin' switchin' lanes rainzzz forever I'm the same
[01:57.81]I'ma go against the grain they can think that I'm insane
[02:00.64]But what they consider normal's an illusion in their brains
[02:03.98]Every night the light fades my happiness goes with it
[02:07.09]When you're heartbroken you're scarred and you can't stitch it
[02:09.92]There's somethin' missin' in me a space that I can't fill in
[02:12.85]There's gotta be an answer out there but what is it
[02:15.38]I'm second guessin' everything I feel inside within
[02:18.35]I'm insecure I'm sad I'm not comfortable in my skin
[02:21.05]I never chose to be me
[02:22.42]Or live in this life of sin
[02:24.12]Some say better days are ahead
[02:25.73]But I'm not convinced
[02:27.48]Rainzzz
[02:28.69]Another memory two
[02:30.9]In a world of my own forever