it’s like i’m not even here (Explicit)

[00:16.21]I had it under control，
[00:19.64]我曾以为一切尽在掌握，
[00:19.64]Everything I love and everything that I own，
[00:23.23]我所珍爱的一切，我所拥有的一切，
[00:23.23]And every time I think about it I miss my home，
[00:27.39]每每念及，便心生对故乡的思念，
[00:27.39]And everyday I'm waiting for you to hit my phone，
[00:31.48]日日夜夜，只盼你来电入耳，
[00:31.48]And I wish you would know，
[00:33.10]多想你能明了，
[00:33.10]I’m so in love with you，
[00:34.95]我如此深爱着你，
[00:34.95]You're so in love with him，
[00:36.78]而你却心属他人，
[00:36.78]I don't know what to do, girl I’m a fool now，
[00:40.95]我不知所措 女孩 此刻我像个傻瓜
[00:40.95]It's getting hard to breathe，
[00:42.89]呼吸变得愈发困难，
[00:42.89]Drugs all in my body，
[00:44.84]药物充斥我的身体，
[00:44.84]I can't do nothing right, girl I'm a loser，
[00:50.28]我做什么都不对，女孩，我只是个失败者，
[00:50.28]And you knew was I here，
[00:52.35]而你知道我在这里，
[00:52.35]Making all these songs like somebody would hear，
[00:55.85]创作这些歌，仿佛会有人听，
[00:55.85]'Cause I'm not good at anything, I always fall short，
[00:59.92]因为我什么都不擅长，总是达不到目标，
[00:59.92]Always wished I was gifted in some way or some sort，
[01:03.92]总希望自己在某方面能有些天赋，
[01:03.92]I'm so ****ing depressed, I feel like I'm a waste，
[01:07.65]我如此绝望，觉得自己就是个废物。
[01:07.65]And my mental ****ed up, all I really wanted was space，
[01:11.87]我的心绪已然崩溃，我真正渴望的不过是片刻宁静，
[01:11.87]And don’t talk to me cause I don’t ever know what to say，
[01:16.09]别再与我交谈，因为我总是不知如何回应，
[01:16.09]A cigarette for me, a lighter for my mistakes。
[01:21.01]一支烟为我，打火机为我的过错。