Lying to Myself - Portair

[03:32.0]Head underneath my pillow
[03:32.0]Melting fast like April snow
[03:32.0]I try to breathe but it comes slow
[03:32.0]So I make do with what I know
[03:32.0]I lament in the pouring rain
[03:32.0]I'd rather wash away my pain
[03:32.0]Can't spare the time to entertain
[03:32.0]Afraid of loss, afraid of change
[03:32.0]So I keep lying, lying to myself
[03:32.0]Tell myself I don't need help
[03:32.0]Lie myself right into hell
[03:32.0]Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself
[03:32.0]The moon is laughing at me now
[03:32.0]Voices echo in and out
[03:32.0]I made my peace with a war of doubt
[03:32.0]So I tilt my head back underground
[03:32.0]My brother took the brunt of it
[03:32.0]While I found weakness in my grip
[03:32.0]Took nine years to see what I missed
[03:32.0]Afraid that I'm too late for this
[03:32.0]So I keep lying, lying to myself
[03:32.0]Tell myself I don't need help
[03:32.0]Lie myself right into hell
[03:32.0]Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself